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Tawnya Layne's avatar

Your poem took me right back there, to young motherhood. I certainly wasn't as reflective, as self-aware as you are those many moons ago, but I felt it and feel it still, the loss of self and the joy. Living it out in the messy middle. Thanks for sharing this.

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Ashley Zuberi's avatar

Thank you for your kind words! Glad it resonated. Sometimes we feel like we’re all alone on our isolated islands when in fact we’re often all feeling the same thing.

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Lauren Barber's avatar

Oh gosh I feel so much of this, and I’m truly wishing you so much love in this monumental shift… I love your words written and the holding of paradox always in motherhood. Thank you for your honesty. Xxx

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Ashley Zuberi's avatar

Thank you! It’s the magic of yoga—holding that paradox even though it doesn’t make sense 🙂

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Imola's avatar

Dear Ashley, what a beautiful, beautiful post (as always) that I arrive to only now. I am with you 100% of the way! Everything you say about motherhood and womanhood resonates with my deepest being! Cheering you on this next adventure. Please remember to love yourself and care for yourself too. And don't hesitate to reach out when needed. You have all my admiration.

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Ashley Zuberi's avatar

Thank you Imola! I’m glad it resonated 🙂

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Jacquie Bullard's avatar

Hell yes! I laugh at that exclamation to get back to the kitchen - that's my happy place and I do a pretty damn fine job in there, I believe:) Plus more...

Your poem is lovely; being excited is overrated. Motherhood is so much more complex than just being excited about all those things...we are deep, feeling beings, we hold it all, and excitement is just a tiny piece of it. Thanks as always for sharing your fire and your voice. So glad to be part of this online community!

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Ashley Zuberi's avatar

Thanks for the acknowledgement on the fire. I doubt it sometimes but I know it’s part of my voice 🙂 Need to lean into it more rather than tone it down.

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Jacquie Bullard's avatar

Fire is so valuable! I have a little, too;)

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Lyndsay Kaldor's avatar

Ah Ashley, thank you for sharing your words and your experience of mothering, all so deeply resonant — the daily co-existing contrasts and continual the loss/rediscovery of Self. Thinking of you in this liminal space and upcoming portal of change xx

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Ashley Zuberi's avatar

Thank you Lindsay!

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